Underground
By David Gilbert, first published in The New Yorker
A newly out and divorced father navigates his familial and sexual relationships while longing for some further purpose in life.
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Michael puts on a sharp suit to go meet his mother for lunch, chatting with his boyfriend—or more accurately, recurring Grindr hookup—before leaving for the day. In the subway, he registers the familiar musician busking as well as the transient passengers going places with purpose as he scrolls through Grindr, feeling the familiar thrill, untainted now that he is out. In the train, he performs the familiar routine of looking around to ensure there are no dangers, fancying himself a hero—a 'knee-jerk daydream' from boyhood.
He has lunch with his mother and brother, covering subjects from art and work to friends and illness. Michael then goes to pick up his daughters from school, scrolling through old texts with his best friend who recently passed away. His ex wife meets him to drop off bags for the girls.
Down in the subway station, Michael and his daughters are caught in a commotion as an angry homeless man walks flailing at the edge of the platform, scaring all the people. One shout tips his balance, and the man goes over the edge of the platform onto the tracks. Everyone panics, and Michael goes to see what he can do. No one seems to know what to do, everyone waiting around for someone else to do something about the situation, so Michael tentatively gets down onto the rails to try to rescue the man. He refuses help, telling Michael to fuck off, but Michael, though terrified, feels a kind of pride in doing something, in being heroic. In the last moments before the train arrives, the homeless man grabs Michael and pulls him to his chest, as if a buffer against the oncoming wheels that brake 8 feet short of the two men.
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