The Voyage Out
By Morley Callaghan, first published in The New Yorker
A young man, enthusiastic about his new love interest, soon realizes he has an issue with staring at the women around him and driving them away.
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At a movie theater one night, a young man named Jeff finds himself sitting next to a young woman. He finds himself staring at her and hopes that she acknowledges him. At the end of the movie, he follows her out to the entrance and strikes a small conversation with her. The girl, named Jessie, works at a millinery store and lives with her parents. A month later, Jeff and Jessie have gone on several dates. Jeff stands in her apartment, ready to leave, and hopes that he can stay over with her that night and make love to her. She agrees, but as they are sneaking back upstairs, they hear Jessie's father cough and she shoos Jeff back outside. Jessie says he may be able to stay over the following night and leaves him outside. Jeff sudden feels full of pride and excitement that he now has something to look forward to and contemplates whether or not to go to the bar and gloat about his achievement. He decides against it. The following day, Jeff goes to a restaurant and gets a cup of coffee. Two girls walk in along with some men from the nearby bakery. One of these men, Mike, orders food and sits besides Jeff. Mike asks Jeff if he likes the two girls that walked in, more specifically the blonde girl in the green hat. Mike explains the blonde girl has been looking at Jeff and that he should go make advances on her. Jeff refuses, but finds himself staring at both of the girls and shifting around on his chair. He finds that the blonde girl reminds him a lot of Jessie, who has not invited him back over yet. Jeff thinks that perhaps Mike would have warned Jeff that Jessie would only last a month if Mike had known her. Yet, Jeff still feels childish thinking about his attraction to Jessie. The two girls, uncomfortable by Jeff's staring, get up and leave. Jeff finds their reaction peculiar, but simply pays his check and leaves. Jeff returns home to his apartment, which he shares with his brother, Bill. As he settles back at home, someone knocks on the door. Jeff opens the door to Bill's girlfriend, Eva, who is crying. Eva asks Jeff is Bill is home and Jeff explains that his brother will be home soon. Eva sits on the couch to wait for her boyfriend and Jeff stares at her and her legs. Jeff believes that Eva found his gaze attractive, but Eva stands up, clearly unsettled by Jeff's staring and exits the door. Jeff goes to the window and watches as Eva leaves, but then runs into her boyfriend, Bill. They begin talking in hushed voices until Eva walks away from Bill. Bill goes into the apartment and Jeff asks about how the interaction went. Bill criticizes Jeff for staring at him, asking if he looks strange and Jeff apologizes. Bill explains that Eva doesn't want to be with him anymore, but Bill is determined to keep their relationship. Jeff explains that he too has a girl of his own and that he wouldn't want to get into the situation that Bill is in. Bill ends the conversation and goes to sleep. Jeff sits and becomes afraid that his relationship with Jessie will end up like Bill and Eva's relationship. Yet, Jeff walks to the window and stares at Jessie's apartment from his window and hopes that his relationship will work out.