How to Make Flan
By Amina Gautier, first published in Now We Will Be Happy
A young woman returns home from college for the first time in years to attend to her dying grandmother, whose only wish is for some homemade flan. Along the way, the young woman is forced to confront her parents' flawed relationship and the neglectful environment in which she grew up.
Author
Published in
Year
Words
Availability
Plot Summary
A young woman in her second to last semester at the University of Pennsylvania receives a rare call from her father, who insists that her grandmother is in the hospital and likely dying. The young woman has not been home in four years, as she has a very dire financial situation and an extremely difficult course load, but she decides to go visit her grandmother. The young woman goes to the hospital to see her grandmother, Abuelita, who is agitated; she has had a stroke and is frustrated by how controlling the nurses are. Abuelita asks her granddaughter to make her flan, which is a dish she makes for her grandchildren when they are sick. The young woman agrees. She speaks to her father and the conversation is tense. Her parents divorced because they were both addicted to work and sent her to boarding school because they didn't have time to care for her. At home, her mother tells her that she cannot make flan for her grandmother because it is too rich. The next day, at the hospital, the young woman's grandmother becomes angry at the cheap food she has been given and spills it, which upsets the young woman's father. The young woman is the only one who can convince Abuelita to eat a few bites of pudding. She and her father visit her grandmother's home to get her brush; the two marvel at Abuelita's store of medicines and home spiritual remedies. She has modeled her home to look like Puerto Rico. At the hospital, Abuelita forces her son out of the room after he pushes her to watch some TV to distract herself. Once again, the young woman is the only one who can reason with her. She brushes Abuelita's hair and reflects on her own mixed race identity, as her mother is Black and her father is Puerto Rican. The two comfort each other, as they have for their whole lives. Abuelita shares that she is terrified of dying in the hospital, which she hates. The young woman comes home to find her father and mother kissing, though her father has not been in the house since she was twelve. Her mother says that it is because he felt upset at being forced out of his mother's hospital room. For the first time, her mother acknowledges how she neglected the young woman as she was growing up. The young woman makes the flan and reflects on one of the times her grandmother made it for her. She does not know if her father will repair his relationship with Abuelita, but she does know that she will prepare this final request to the best of her ability.
Tags