In Black and White
By Ann Jones, first published in The Virginia Quarterly Review
When a young woman's father, a famous photographer, passes away, she thinks that life will be better out from under her father's overbearing eye — and camera — but she finds that her grief is greater than she had expected.
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Patricia is a young woman who lives alone with her father Ben, who is a famous photographer, in a rural town by the ocean. Her father is very overprotective, never letting her out of his sight. He also makes her the subject of his photography, taking pictures of her since her birth in black and white. As she gets older, she has very little freedom, to the point where she at one point hopes that a nearby forest fire will burn down the house. After finding her father dead one morning, she becomes truly alone, no longer watched or protected by him. Before he died, he told her that his friend Jason, who worked in a darkroom and developed his photographs, would continue to sell his prints and manage his artwork, but she would get the house. After her father's funeral, Patricia takes a walk by a nearby river and then returns home in the late afternoon. She makes dinner for herself, which is much simpler than the ones she made when her father was around. Then she wanders around the house, unsure of how to move forward with her life now that everything is different. She used to love watching TV to distract herself from her father, but now that he's gone, she does not. Instead, she lies on her father's bed and listens to one of his records. When the music stops, she gets up and goes to look in his studio. Her father's photographs on the wall frighten her, as it seems that every one of them, including the ones that she is not in, seem to perfectly capture her current lost and confused state. As she looks at the photos, the light turns on and Jason enters. He advises her to leave the house, knowing that she'll need some time to process her grief. Patricia goes into the living room and turns on the TV, no longer wanting to be near her father's photographs. Jason stays for a minute and then leaves. Patricia revels in all the brilliant colors around her that contrast so starkly with the black and white photographs of her father.