A woman riding a train through New Jersey recollects the way her older sister always looked: tired and sad. She remembers how during the coma before her sister’s death, she finally looked peaceful. The woman misses her sister, who was many years older than her. Her sister had a far more difficult childhood than her, with three fathers by the time she was six years old, but never failed to look out for the woman. She remembers missing her sister when she went to college and the animal-themed gifts her sister always sent.   She remembers the way her older sister loved her daughters fiercely. She remembers their last conversation, in which her sister said she didn’t want to talk anymore so she could save strength for talking with her daughters. The woman returns to thinking about how much money and time her sister spent on choosing the best gift. Once, her sister gave the woman a computer. She also funded trips for them to be together. As the train nears Philadelphia, the woman recalls not going to her sister’s funeral in order to stay with their mother. She remembers the time her sister came to visit and wishes her sister could still be there in her home. The woman remembers how her father died shortly after her sister died. She and her brother debated whether or not to tell their father, now unable to speak or see, that his daughter had died. The woman cannot remember if they told him or not. It starts raining and she looks at the changing landscape outside the train window. She compares the different types of grief she felt for her sister and father after they both died. She remembers the little felt seals her sister gave her as a final gift before she died, which were to keep her refrigerator smelling good. The woman cannot throw them away, even after seven years. The woman notices noise coming from the café car. Another passenger walks down the train aisle and tells her there’s a party.