Natural Light
By Kathleen Alcott, first published in Zoetrope
A young woman stumbles upon an explicit photograph of her now-deceased mother hung in a museum. She tracks down the photographer looking for answers she may not care to find.
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A thirty year-old woman living in New York City visits a museum. As she peruses the galleries, her eyes catch on a photograph across the room. As she takes a closer look, she realizes that the subject, a woman receiving oral sex from a man, is in fact her deceased mother. The woman and her now ex-husband met when she was twenty-two and he was forty, and although the marriage worked for sometime they have now been separated almost a year. The woman calls her father in search of answers. When she asks about the photograph her father doesn't seem to know what she's talking about, quickly changes the subject and then hangs up. The next morning, the narrator returns to the museum to take a picture of the photograph, and she emails the photographer. She tries to call her father again, but when he picks up, he doesn't allow her to ask any questions. The woman thinks back to fights with her ex-husband. At the time, she was mentally unstable and struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts. Her then-husband didn't understand. The woman goes to see the photographer in her apartment across town. There, she finds out her mother is the subject of another famous and racy photograph. The photographer asks her if she'd like to be photographed as well. On her way home, the woman watches a movie and sends the photograph to her father asking for answers. The woman again thinks back to a friend's wedding she and her ex-husband attended. She saved him a seat at breakfast the morning after the reception, but he sat at a different table entirely. She threatened divorce. The next day, the woman wakes up to three missed calls from her father. On the fourth call, she answers, and he apologizes for not telling her about the photograph. Her father reveals that both he and her mother are addicts and that the photograph was taken during a dark period in her mother's life. Finally, the woman emails the photographer and agrees to be photographed, but only if she's asleep.