What Terrible Thing It Was
By Esmé Weijun Wang, first published in Granta
On the day of the 2016 presidential election, a Chinese American woman with schizophrenia begins consultations to receive electroconvulsive therapy, and is haunted by the hanging of a Chinese American female classmate from high school years ago.
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On the Election Day of 2016, in California, Wendy Chung enters Wellbrook Psychiatric Hospital for a consultation, before receiving electroconvulsive therapy. Wendy hears voices and has had escalated psychosis due to stress from the election. Wendy fixates, dreams, and hallucinates about the hanging murder of a 17-year-old Chinese American girl named Becky Guo near her town several years ago. As she goes to her consultation, Wendy reflects on her experiences with Becky Guo’s parents. At the request of Becky’s Chinese parents, Wendy wrote a letter in English to the mayor of their town to cut down the tall eucalyptus tree from which Becky was hanged. Despite the letter, the eucalyptus tree stayed up; Wendy regularly visited it but stopped out of fear of the killer. The psychiatrist recommends that Wendy undergo electroconvulsive therapy. On her way back home from the hospital, Wendy goes to the polls to vote, where she sees Becky’s mother, Mrs. Guo, volunteering at the polls. Mrs. Guo thanks Wendy for writing the letter years ago. Back home and watching the 2016 presidential election results with her husband Dennis, Wendy recalls how even after suicide was ruled out in Becky’s death, local residents speculated that Becky killed herself. Wendy often avoided Becky, as they were both the two of the few Chinese girls in their school. As Wendy watches Donald Trump win the election, she continues to hear Becky’s voice in her head. Disoriented, Wendy goes to the bathroom sink and lets the water run, forgetting what she had meant to do.
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