In the Beginning of Me, I Was a Bird
By Maria Dong, first published in Lightspeed
When seeds fall from the sky and cause human beings to transform into animals, two people try to understand how they met.
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When the seeds fall and collide with flesh, animals turn into other animals. At first, the bird is a magpie. They feel right being a bird. In their magpie life, they know another bird, a finch, which they befriend and watch out for. One day, the magpie tries to protect the finch from a fox below their tree, but it turns out that the fox has a seed, meaning that it’s both human and not human. The finch and fox talk about how disorienting it is to constantly be transforming. The fox says that it doesn’t want to be a fox but rather a bird, after which it lunges at the finch but misses. After a few hours, it leaves.
The magpie tries to sort out their memories but struggles. They remember their human life, two weeks before their first transformation. They are a human being living in a shoebox apartment, single and without a job. They are already sick and full of pain, which prevents them from going out. Once, their neighbor knocks on their door, but they refuse to answer. The day before their transformation, they see a local cat on their windowsill.
The human becomes a cat. At first, they have no control, but soon enough, they feel in their mind again and share the cat’s body. The cat pounces on mice, goes to restaurants, climbs fire escapes, and even has six kittens. Eventually, the cat runs into the same neighbor as before, who bathes them and takes care of them. Later, the cat sees, inside the neighbor’s closet, pictures of the human. The cat realizes that the neighbor was watching them in their previous life.
The cat escapes, after which the neighbor chases after them. They successfully get away but find the neighbor going to the coffee shop and then the cat’s old apartment. The cat follows the neighbor up to the door and watches them. Soon enough, they realize that the neighbor has been struck by a seed too. Later, by the dumpster, when the cat is catching a mouse, they see that the neighbor is just about to die. Because of the seed, she becomes the mouse.
The cat and mouse stick together, although they can’t talk to each other. After a while, the cat drags the mouse to the zoo, where they end up in a giraffe enclosure. Soon enough, they both become giraffes. Even without language, they bond and feel some sense of connection in the same species. The former human thinks about why their neighbor must have been stalking them before, wondering if it’s because of this kind of closeness.
As the zoo’s attendance dies down, so too do the animals. The two giraffes move through species after species until, after the very last, they become a pair of bees in the nick of time. Later, the two bees then plunge out of the sky and become two dolphins. Through clicks, the two dolphins can talk to each other. They then turn into monkeys and break out of the zoo, but the former human, now monkey, is afraid of what they’ll see in the city, whether they will make it out to nature.
Through nature, the two monkeys roam freely and clumsily grasp language. They feel euphoric with their freedom and their communion with the world around them, but one day, as deer, they stumble upon a hunter who shoots one of the deer, the one who used to be the human’s neighbor. The deer then dies with another shot, and this time, there isn’t another animal for them to transform into. Instead, the fallen deer’s consciousness joins that of the deer still alive, that of the former human. Together, they inhabit the same deer and manage to flee.
The deer with two minds tries to figure out what to do now as they cycle through animals, eventually becoming a fish, a dolphin, and even a shark. Still, the seeds are falling from the sky. Together, the two wonder if humanity will die out and become animals. In the depths of the ocean, they talk about their lives as humans. The former human asks why the neighbor had photos of them in their closet. The neighbor says that they were a private investigator sent to investigate a client’s wife, during which they saw the client’s wife sitting at the same table as the human. Eventually, the former human remembers that the client’s wife was only someone who accidentally sat at their table. Together, they laugh at the nature of how they came together. They share their loneliness—that which they felt in all of their lives.
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