Supernova
By Kosiso Ugwueze, first published in New England Review
When a bus is taken hostage, a woman comes to terms with her death.
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The woman’s bus comes to a stop. She has been on the bus for three hours after leaving her mother’s place, which she was living at temporarily after her suicide attempt. Soon enough, the bus is filled with gunshots as three men board and shoot through its ceiling. They ask everyone to get up and head outside, which the woman complies with. Nonchalantly, the woman asks where she should be marching off to, and the men lead her through the forest, with three others, for half an hour. Eventually, the three men ask the four hostages to sit down, telling them that they are being held for ransom.
For the last six months, the woman has thought about death. On the morning of her attempt, she waits for her deeply religious roommate to wake up. Now, held hostage, the woman takes out her phone and contemplates sending a selfie to her roommate. One man, nicknamed chief, asks her what she’s doing and throws her phone away, threatening her with death if she acts out of line.
On the morning of her suicide, the woman tells her roommate to inform the people at their school that she had a stomachache. She thinks about writing a note but stops, as she has nothing to say. She swallows thirty pills and sits calmly. Eventually, she passes out and wakes up in the hospital with her mother at her side. In bed, the woman thinks about how her parents had her as an accident. Her mother begs for her forgiveness.
Now, in the forest, the woman spends a night sleeping with the three other hostages. When they wake up, there’s only one man left presiding over them, who is nicknamed big boy. The woman asks where the others have gone, to which big boy explains that they have families to attend to and can’t stay out for too long. One hostage asks how much the ransom amount is and is saddened knowing that his family cannot pay for it.
After her suicide attempt, the woman spends several days in the hospital, where her mother reads news to her. When she is released, the woman lives with her mother, who takes care of her henceforth. One day, the woman asks her mother if she can see a psychiatrist.
Four days into the hostage situation, one ransom is paid, allowing one man to leave. Later that night, the woman talks to chief and big boy about her studies in school: astrophysics. They think of her incredulously, wondering how their country can afford to send someone to space. She then thinks back to how her own aunt disapproved of her intent to study astrophysics, saying that her mother wouldn’t approve of it. She then remembers that her dad died in a car crash.
A while after her suicide attempt, the woman goes to see a psychiatrist whom her mother knows. The mother wants the woman to promise her that she’ll get better, and she does. The psychiatrist tries to learn more about her ideations but never gets through to her. The woman asks him for antidepressants, but the psychiatrist says there’s low supply in their country.
After a week in the forest, another hostage is let go, leaving only the woman and another. Talking to the men, who wonder why her parents aren’t looking for her, the woman says that her father is dead and her mother is a psychiatrist. The men ask her if her parents don’t like her, and she doesn’t answer. She thinks back to how, when her roommate asked her why she tried to kill herself, she simply said that she was bored.
After meeting with her psychiatrist, the woman realizes that he’s been feeding her mother information about their sessions. In their kitchen, they briefly argue about it, after which the woman has a violent outburst and destroys many things in their house.
Eventually, the woman is the last hostage. The men ask her why she hasn’t gone home already, wondering why no one has gone to look for her. She says that she’ll stay a bit longer. She lays down and gets ready to sleep in the forest.
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