Devotion
By Adam Haslett, first published in Yale Review
In English countryside, a brother and sister prepare to have dinner with an old friend they were both in love with fifteen years ago.
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On a hot June day in Wimbledon, Owen and his sister Hillary prepare for a visit from Ben — a man they'd both loved fifteen years ago. Back when they were kids, Hillary and Owen found their mother's body out on the bog. Hillary has been protective of Owen ever since, and could not imagine being with anyone who does not understand her brother. Meanwhile, Owen's connection to gay life had become more tenuous after the AIDS epidemic that claimed his friends. He had accepted that it was not in his fate to be paired off in love, until he met Ben. The two were drawn to each other. They seemed to intuitively comprehend a certain register of sadness, Ben having also lost a parent. However, Ben fell more quickly in love with Hillary. Ben moved back to Boston briefly and sent letters for Hillary, which went unanswered. Owen had concealed these letters, acting out of a feeling of jealousy that he's now ashamed of. Ben is now married with two kids. Old feelings of loss, betrayal, jealousy, and sympathy surface over the course of the afternoon. Hillary never considered any man seriously after Ben, and Owen stayed with his sister.