Therapunitive Intervention
By Matthew Goldberg, first published in Coolest American Stories 2022
At a monk retreat, a guilty pharmacist tries to reclaim his attention span—and take accountability for what he has done.
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The man and his peers follow the head monk. At the monk program, no one is allowed to have phones, nor is anyone allowed to talk. In silence, they follow him down the steps of the temple. The man can only think about how badly he wants his phone and be with his rabbit, whom he rescued from an animal testing lab. He thinks about his social media, wondering about how his sponsorship post with Burger King has gone.
While the monks head down the temple’s steps, everyone must do a specific task perfectly or else risk starting over at the beginning of the temple’s steps. The man’s task is to bang a gong every fifteen steps, so he counts his steps carefully. He thinks about how he’s here, doing all of this, as part of a program that’s half-therapy, half-punishment, specifically to combat his lack of attention span.
The man thinks back to how a fellow influencer, with millions of followers, said the monk program was a waste of time. Looking at his peers now, he doesn’t recognize any of them from the internet. He thinks about the bad act which sentenced him here to begin with, which was accidentally giving a patient the wrong medication—thus causing his suicide—all because of his lack of attention span. He then thinks about how the peers in his group of five probably haven’t done that much bad compared to him. The head monk then turns around to start a lunch break with the man’s group.
After lunch, the man’s group starts walking again. Soon, they hear a series of thuds down the steps. The man wonders what it is, but after seeing a few others hurriedly head down the temple’s steps, he infers that someone has fallen. Looking down, he sees a small orange dot—another monk—crying out. The head monk tells the man’s group to stop, after which he heads down alone. While the head monk is away, the man’s group breaks their vows of silence in order to talk about what has happened.
The head monk returns and leads the man’s group down the temple’s steps again. They soon pass the monk who has fallen, and the man briefly makes eye contact with her, after which he thinks there’s a spark between them. As they head further down the temple’s steps, he reflects on how repairing his attention span will be crucial to saving his mind and thus preventing him from harming his patients in the future. He thinks about how he can hardly focus nowadays, that the monk program may be the cure for his lack of attention span.
At the bottom of the temple’s steps is a gorge. Everyone stops doing their specific tasks, and the head monk leads the man’s group to a lagoon where a tea ceremony will happen. Everyone sits down on their respective bamboo mats, and the head monk begins to make tea. Eventually, one of the man’s peers has something like a seizure, likely due to his lack of stimuli. The man then asks for his phone so that he can document what’s going on, but the head monk both denies him his request and sentences him to the punishment of mindfulness meditation.
The man fears that he won’t survive mindfulness meditation. Quickly, his mind is overrun with bad thoughts. He tries to calm down with deep breaths, but soon enough, a terrifying blob approaches him in his mind’s eye. It gets bigger and bigger as it nears him, but the man has no fear. He admits to himself that he was at fault for what happened to his patients. He takes control over his mind, and the blob goes away. He then experiences a momentary enlightenment, which makes him realize that he should delete his social media.
After the mindfulness meditation, the man no longer feels anxiety. Back at the tea ceremony, a loud sound rings from the head monk’s whistle. The tea ceremony is over, after which the head monk tells the man that it’s time to go. The man gets his phone back, and the man’s group goes to the temple’s parking lot where buses will take everyone back to the city. Sitting in a bus, the man feels grateful for the monk program, but he suddenly feels the desire to make one very last post online about it.
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