Angel
By Pat Cadigan, first published in Asimov's Science Fiction
A young, intersex outcast struggling to find their place in society finds solace in a beautiful visitor from another world. Despite having thoughts and motivations beyond human understanding, the two bond over their shared experiences and trauma, all the while battling ghosts from their past.
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One frigid night, a lonely outcast stumbles across Angel: a man of indescribable beauty, so clearly not of this world. Angel feels pain so intense that it's tangible, literally experienced by the witness. After this overwhelming emotional encounter, the person decides to take care of Angel, bringing him home and forming a deep connection. In the night, the two go out and explore the world, experiencing the lives of human beings. Angel feeds, indiscriminately, on the emotional exertion of people, absorbing energy from happiness and grief alike. To him there is no "good or bad" emotion, only "more or less." Angel uses the energy he collects to bend reality, telepathically manipulating a passer-by into giving them money for food. While the pair eat, a woman watches them from a distance. The more time Angel and the person spend together, the more the lines separating their beings blur: thoughts and feelings spill into one another. The person can tell that Angel is distressed by the woman's appearance. After leaving the restaurant, the pair see the same woman and Angel desperately tries to run away. He expends the last of his energy to phase through a gate and escape. The two try to hide amongst the people in a bar but they're mistaken for a gay couple, beaten up and left outside. The woman approaches Angel's unconscious body and drags him into her car, inviting the person to come along. On the drive, the woman explains that Angel belonged to her at one point and that she was addicted to the luxurious life he used to provide. In her taunting, it's revealed that the person is intersex and feels as though they don't belong. Angel consoles them, admitting that he was banished to Earth for the crime of refusing to mate with his own species so, he too doesn't belong. Angel throws himself at the steering wheel, forcing the car into a devastating crash and killing the woman. On his deathbed, Angel tells the person that he's been transferring his abilities to them. He says that they have the choice use them if they so please and proceeds to dissolve into nothingness.
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