Bear Witness
By Mary Gaitskill, first published in Amazon Original Stories
A woman on a grand jury hears the case of an older woman who was brutally raped by one of her former students. She attempts to understand the different ways the story disturbs her.
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Mark is a young, troubled boy who has had Ms. Jenny Pietrisinski as a teacher in elementary school when he finds himself in her special ed classroom again, in another town and school. Jenny does her best to help Mark, rewarding him when he’s good and punishing him when he’s wrong; still, she makes little progress. One day, to punish him, Jenny spanks him, which he reciprocates, becoming erect in the process. She wonders whether he is lost, but when another student charges at her and Mark speaks out, trying to stop him, she believes there may be hope for him. Thus, when he applies for a job at her father’s maintenance store, she neither encourages nor discourages her father from hiring him; she simply says he is a good man with a proclivity for trouble.
Flash forward, Moira is serving as a juror on a grand jury, which she dreads—though the job is made less tedious by keeping company with a few other jurors during lunch. Typically, their conversations are menial, but they bring up Kavanaugh, which sets off a debate about what is and is not rape. Moira defends Kavanaugh, saying that she didn’t believe he should be held accountable for something he did as a seventeen-year-old—plus, she says, he didn’t even rape her.
Coincidentally, their next case is a rape case where a seventy-year-old woman was raped by a fifty-year-old man who worked at her father’s maintenance store, broke into her apartment above it, forced her into crotchless panties, and repeatedly raped her. Witnesses, including Mark’s fiancée and boss—a younger man who took over once Jenny’s father died—can’t understand what reasoning Mark had to rape a woman, let alone a seventy-year-old one. That is until they hear the testimony from Mark himself, wherein he confesses that she was his teacher. He made many mistakes in her classroom, and this event was no different. He is sorry and wants to fix things for Jenny; shivers run down Moira’s spine at the tenderness in his voice when he says her name, as though she is his beloved, as though he genuinely cares about her.
Returning home, Moira wants to speak with her husband about it, but she doesn’t want to hear what crass comments he will make about how gross it is to have sex with a seventy-year-old woman. When she does reveal the story, her husband is disturbed. Still, upon hearing about their prior history, he seems to understand Mark. He tells his wife that Jenny must’ve given Mark the best sex of his life—sex worth going to prison for. Moira is troubled for the rest of the night by her husband’s implication that this is something Jenny gave to Mark and not something he violently took from her.
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