Willing
By Lorrie Moore, first published in The New Yorker
In the 1990s, a Hollywood star moves back to her hometown of Chicago and tries to find meaning in a relationship with a man whom she does not love.
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Sidra is an actress in Hollywood in the 1990s whose recent work involves male objectification of her body. Her boyfriend breaks up with her to get back together with his wife, and Sidra leaves Hollywood to return home to Chicago. She believes she is untalented and that she is successful only because she will do any kind of work. Her friend Tommy is her only solace, and she thinks of him as a type of soulmate. He tells her that she does not belong in the Midwest and begs her to come back to LA. Sidra meets a man at a bar and decides he is nice and that she wants to have sex with him. His name is Walter, and he is a mechanic. He is interesting enough, although all he talks about is cars and he has never seen any of Sidra's movies. Sidra decides to attempt a relationship with him. The two sleep together habitually, and Walter watches Sidra's movies. Sidra's best friend Charlotte says that Walter is known for sleeping around and that Sidra is too good for him. Sidra does not care; she likes Walter. Walter tells Sidra to invest in a specific company in the stock market, and she does so. The next day, their stocks start to plummet, and Walter reveals to Sidra that he messed up the company name. Sidra visits her parents, but her father is uncomfortable with Sidra's immodest movie roles and her mother does not know how to talk to her. Not long after, Walter tells Sidra that he plans to meet up with another woman, but that it is not a date. The next day, Sidra asks if he slept with the woman, and Walter hesitates to answer. Sidra asks if they had oral sex, and Walter says that they did. Walter breaks up with Sidra because she does not love him, even though it goes against his instincts to break up with a movie star. He says it is for her own good.