He Knew
By Donald Antrim, first published in The New Yorker
A couple, an older man with a young wife, traverse a typical day, dealing with their respective mental health issues atop long-standing marital tensions.
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Alice and Stephen are out walking, something they've taken to doing every time Stephen is feeling mentally well enough to leave the apartment. As always, they are shopping, mostly for Alice as Stephen feels a faint sense of ridiculousness wearing nice clothes, a consequence of his now fading career as an actor. While reminiscing on how they met (in an elevator, where he exclaimed 'you're so tall!'), they begin to feel off and duck into a coffee shop to take their respective medications, antidepressants and anti-anxieties.
Stephen becomes a bit disoriented in the coffee shop, thinking he sees his old psychiatrist, who has actually been dead for many years now. He thinks about his old friend Claire, who Alice had been jealous of after convincing herself that the two had had an affair while she'd been hospitalized. Leaving the coffee shop, Alice admits that she snuck a few more Valiums than she was given, and is now slumping against Stephen. He thinks about their similar upbringings in the mountains of North Carolina, something that had brought them together, though they never went back because neither had much family left to speak of.
A little girl dressed as a lion (it is Halloween) runs into them, prompting her parents to come apologize to them. The girl's name turns out to be Claire, which makes Alice uncomfortable. The mother recognizes Stephen from an old tv show. Walking away, Alice becomes irrational and upset, saying that Stephen had been flirting with the mother, bringing the fight back to Claire and her idea of their affair. Alice runs away from him in despair, and he takes one of her Valiums to calm down.
Stephen ends up at a bar, crowded with people in costume. He calls Alice multiple times and she finally picks up and comes to the bar. She cries on his shoulder and they talk about visiting their hometowns to calm down. They eventually get a cab home, where Stephen helps Alice undress and they go to bed. Stephen thinks that maybe in the morning he'll make love to her and they'll try to start a family, the thing they've both been looking for.
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